Sometimes, I just get to a spot where everything loses meaning and feels vacuous, these phases come and go.  My math teacher asked what gets me up in the morning and I didn't know what to say, because when I don't have to get up for school, I stay in my bed with the ants and fuzzy eyes.  Or, I guess, things don't become empty, I just get too tired to fish out the meaning.
Regardless, I think that's what has been bothering me about clotted, that I put myself down as a thing, and the thing looks like a wading pool.

In history class today, the Bladerunner-Baptist Minister's Wife gave us ice cream sandwiches and turned on Saving Private Ryan for the first twenty minutes, the beaches bit. 


  1. i love your blog. you give me delightful insight on life that i would never think of on my own!

    <3, angelica

  2. Exactly Angelica!

    Another intriguing and thoughtful post. I do know what you mean about everything losing meaning; to me it comes at times of major stress. I just don't want to be bothered with things I know I care about, but as you say, that passes.

    Mushrooms and a mushroom cloud. This started me thinking about the movie "Atomic Cafe" and its great soundtrack.


  3. Looks cool, I looked up the trailer on youtube and some of the propaganda pieces were funny, others thought provoking or totally ridiculous. The footage of the explosion from the air is one of the most amazing and awful sights ever, I think.

  4. Wow - wrote a long comment on your comment - guess I forgot to post it.

    Don't want to overload you with links, but thought you might want to take a look sometime at "Hiroshima" by John Hersey. Published in the New Yorker in 1946, and later as a book, it provided the first personal accounts of those who were victims of Hiroshima. The original paperback (can't find a photo online) featured a young, Anglo couple on the cover, fleeing from the city.


    The early atomic era also produced some pretty bizarre cultural artifacts, such as Wanda Jackson's 1957 version of "Fujiyama Mama', with lyrics such as "I've been to Hiroshima, Nagasaki too, and what I did to them I'm gonna do to you". This record was actually a big hit in Japan.


  5. ooh, thank you, there can never be too many links. I read the first few pages, and "Hiroshima" looks totally interesting. Have you read "Night" by Elie Weisel? That was one of the recommended books under Hiroshima on Amazon, and it's a really moving and powerful book.

  6. I have read "Night", though it's been a while. A very powerful and moving book for sure.

    A really amazing work of Holocaust literature is "Maus" by Art Spiegelman. It's probably the only graphic novel ever to be chosen for the new York Times best Books of the Decade list. Haunting and hard to describe.